Clarity

God,

I have no idea how I got here…

And I can’t seem to find my way, I don’t know what to do.

How much do I tolerate before I am stuck?

How long do I bite my tongue before I completely lose my voice?

How hard do I fight before I just give up?

How do I know when to throw in the towel?

If he thinks I deserve better than why doesn’t he start treating me better?

Why do I feel like I don’t deserve better?

I don’t know how I am still hanging on…. I think it’s because You haven’t let me go… I hope you’ve got a tight grip because I don’t know how much longer I can keep up…

Lord, I am listening….I am seeking…. I am here….meet me here. Show me your ways and in this seemingly insignificant part of my life please give me clear direction.

I just don’t know what to do….